Tuesday, May 27, 2014

Update... Overdo, but Important

This is one of those updates that is more for me than you, or anyone, really. It is more a scrap booking type of update. I wish I could make it pretty, but rather, I need to make it easy to understand and find when I need to look back on the craziness that has been my spring. Today, as I write, I am in "formal" "professional" "cut to the chase" "every detail counts" mode. I don't like this mode, but I know that I function in a much more logical mindset when I am in it, so, here goes....

Friday, March 14, 2014: I finally got a referral to an Orthopedic Specialist for my hip, since physical therapy just didn't get the results we had hoped for. However, my appointment was with a Shoulder specialist. Yep - that was a bit weird, but I will run with it, since it seems it is the way the office runs. The appointment seemed to go fine. I left with a Cortisone shot and plans for an MR Arthrogram, and feeling like maybe there would eventually be a light at the end of this year-long tunnel of hip pain. The shot worked, after the first day of pain, for three days, and then my pain returned.

Friday, April 11, 2014: MR Arthrogram for my hip. An MRI in which I was clear about needing to be sedated, and they didn't sedate me. It was awful. They also told me I would need a driver. But I didn't. That just makes scheduling a more challenging task. Thankful for good friends. The injection for this MRI was painful and weird and lasted just long enough to be annoying, but all went well.

Monday, April 14, 2014: Follow up from Cortisone shot with Shoulder Dr. to let him know the shot did not work more than three days and I was totally bummed. He referred me on to Hip Dr. and told me that I could expect surgery for a labral tear. As scary as it was to think about, it was more exciting because I am so ready for pain relief and to have my active life back. Over the next couple of days, Cindy, Hip Drs. scheduler did an amazing job of getting me in to several appointments and scheduled surgery for May 29th. I remember feeling sad to be missing the last week of school, but, the other option would have been to potentially start next year on crutches and NOBODY that works in a school wants to do that if given a choice.

Friday, April 25, 2014: The day started bright and early with an interview at 7:45 AM for our district Teacher on Special Assignment: Literacy and Language Arts position. I thought it went well. They did not do introductions, which made me a little uncomfortable, but it was still a decent interview. Then, off to work and finally off to the airport to head to Chicago for an extended weekend to meet up with a bestie from college and baby I had yet to meet. So exciting!

Tuesday, April 29, 2014: Interview via Skype for a district position. The district couldn't get their technology to work, but after about 15 extra minutes of sweating through my sweater, we made it all work and the interview went fine.

Wednesday, April 30, 2014: Fly back from Chicago. What a great trip - another blog post about that coming soon - I hope!

Monday, May 5, 2014: Surprise to everyone - our principal, whom I have grown to adore and work so well with, announced he had been reassigned to a different building in the district. It was a LONG day. My student that is living in a shelter, without parents, fell apart in the afternoon. At 9:03 PM, I got a VOICEMAIL message that I did not get either of the jobs that I applied for. I am an "amazing person," but not the best fit for the job. Gag me. I promise to never talk about the type of PERSON someone is when I am telling why they are or are not getting a job. Amen. Period. Done.

Thursday, May 8, 2014: Met with Drew, the Loan Officer that Whitney recommended. He was GREAT! I think I might actually understand a bit about the financial side of buying a house. And, I think I might actually be financially ready to commit to a house.... oh boy! Later that day, which was a whirlwind, I helped transport my friend, Sean, after his Lasik surgery. Then, I, myself, got dropped off at a hotel for the evening to begin the prep for a colonoscopy. Let's be honest, I don't need to go into details on that one.

Friday, May 9, 2014: Colonoscopy #2 went so well that I don't have to go back for FIVE years instead of THREE! Yippee! Happy 40th birthday to me. The doc commended my efforts of Gluten Free living and said that while I still don't test positive for an official diagnosis, it is obvious I have a strong sensitivity, and therefore, need to be careful and mindful about what I am putting in my body by means of wheat and gluten.

Saturday, May 10, 2014: Mom, dad, and Amy showed up in my driveway and we knocked out 9 visits to potential homes. I fell in love twice. Maybe two-and-a-half times. Whitney, my neighbor and realtor is quickly becoming a friend, and I am so thankful for her! After our whirlwind of house hunting we took off for home to be able to spend Mother's Day with Grandma, too.

Sunday, May 11, 2014: A beautiful Mother's Day with my dad's mom, my mom, and my sister-in-law, mommy to my beautiful brood of niece and nephews. :) Church, lunch, and hanging out - oh, and getting Grandpa set up with an email account..... that should produce some future stories, shouldn't it?!? :) I met up with a couple of friends for a ride home, which was a fun way for me to take part in their upcoming nuptials as I stuffed and stamped a whole lot of envelopes to pass the time.

Tuesday, May 13, 2014: 7:00 AM, I went over to my realtor's house across the street and we wrote up our first offer on a great little home with a great story I will share at a later time. At 3:30 PM, I met her at the house two doors down from hers, that had gone on the market, officially, that morning. At 4:00 PM, we were writing our second offer for the day. Within 24 hours, we had gone back and forth a little bit and agreed to move forward with an inspection.

Saturday, May 17, 2014: 9:00 AM, inspection at the new house showed that most everything was as it should have been. Very exciting!!

Monday, May 19, 2014: Radon test came up high. Back to the negotiating board.

Wednesday, May 21, 2014: happy birthday, Mom! 9:45 AM, my principal covers for me so I can go to my pre-op appointment with my surgeon. He ordered another x-ray. I filled out another health history form. The nurse gave me some neon orange, really tight, shorts that I felt more appropriate for a jail bird than a patient, but oh well. Well, I thought "oh well" at first - until my surgeon and three of his student buddies walked in. HOT. All three of them. HOT. And there I sat, in work clothes on top, jailbird clothes on the bottom. Shoot. Not that that is the point, but it was a bummer. He repeated my health history and range of motion work. He very quickly explained his concern: it seems as though the pain I am having may be coming from the muscle, not the joint. The surgery that I have scheduled for NEXT WEEK? Yep - it's for a joint fix. Dr. explained that he wanted to run one more set of images and one more injection to verify whether we are working with joint or muscle issues. He asked if I could easily come in the next day - ummm - nope! So, we scheduled for Friday. Got the final word on the house that I have an offer on - the negotiating has gone well and we are all happy with the terms. Moving forward!

Thursday, May 22, 2014: spent the entire day at the District Office interviewing candidates for the principalship in my building. A great first experience, but seriously - intense. It was a lot of weight to carry for my staff. I felt the pressure to make the right decision, even though it is not my decision alone to make! I also felt super inspired by the process - I could have seen myself answering any of those questions, sitting in the hot seat. Maybe I really CAN do that job! hmmm.....

Friday, May 23, 2014: 1:05 appointment at CDI. Mindy picked me up from school at noon. When I got to the parking lot at the imaging clinic, I had to spend about 20 minutes trying to aggravate my hip. That's not too hard - it hurts constantly. I jogged back and forth on the pavement, sat with my legs crossed, completed a few squats and some jumping jacks and pushed myself until the tears were near but not exactly falling. I had a 3D CT scan to look at my hip. In addition, I received an injection - not a Cortisone shot this time, but I couldn't tell you what it actually was.... that's a bit scary, but I am just that trusting, I guess. It was the most painful injection I have ever received. Uff da. 30 minutes after the injection, my task was to aggravate it in the same way I had done prior to the appointment and note any changes. No changes. Within 1 minute of jogging, the pain was exactly the same as it was during the pre-shot aggravating period. I completed the jogging, the squats, the sitting and the jumping jacks to no avail. I called my surgeon and left a "detailed message" explaining that the injection had no impact on my hip pain. Actually - I was wrong - it did have an impact. Over the course of Friday night and Saturday morning, my pain got worse. It got progressively worse to the point where I couldn't walk without holding my breath and grunting. I couldn't sit or lay down comfortably. There was just no relief. Thank God, for real, that my sister was in town visiting for the weekend.

On the way home from CDI, stopped at PHH/CBB to meet with my Loan Officer, Drew, and sign all of the final loan paperwork to BUY MY FIRST HOUSE! Wahoozie!

At about 5:00 that evening, the nurse called. Surgery canceled. I almost cried. I thought we were so close to an answer. I was supposed to be 6 days short of being on the road to recovery. The summary from the doctor after listening to my voice message was that the shot was meant to mimic the body's response to surgery. If we went forward with surgery, we would be fixing the wrong problem and my pain would not be gone, and I would be unable to address the pain for up to a year while my hip healed from a surgery that isn't the primary need right now. Bullet dodged, I suppose.

But now, am I back to Square 1??? Will anyone ever be able to help me figure this out and get well? I am feeling frustrated by my health, excited about my upcoming move, and exhausted by the end of the school year all at once. So, my mantra is "Baby Steps" - I have been packing one thing at a time, completing one lesson at a time, and choosing my movements carefully.

And that's why you haven't heard from me for a month.

:) Hope all of you are well!
~ Jen

6 comments:

aggiekesler said...

Whew! You've had a month! I'm exhausted just reading it...can't imagine how you feel. Congrats on the house...so exciting! Hope the drs. find the source of your pain soon!

elsie said...

Oh Jen! What a tale you tell! You have been living quite the life on a roller coaster. While you were gone, I broke a bone in my foot. I know it will heal and I'll be back to normal in weeks. I hope they can figure out your hip pain, soon!

elle1955 said...

You tell your story so well. And you will understand why the woman in my story (most recent post) did not get her knees fixed, despite the pain. Hope you are all fixed up soon.

Jaana said...

So much is happening in your life! And you deal with it all while being in pain! You are amazing! Hoping that the docs will soon figure out what is going on with your hip.
P.S. Welcome back!

Terje said...

Oh my, Jen. I hope that you get EVERYTHING sorted and get some time to breathe and play - pain and worry free.
P.S. I missed you.

jenbaum said...

Thanks, everyone! It has been a nutty spring, but I am thankful that it has still been full of blessings amidst a bit of crazy. :)